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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
5:28 PM
I just finished watching season 1 and 2 of One Tree Hill. I was pretty much upset with how season 2 ended. It sucked. Damn. One thing I was happy about though was the fact that the real bad guy died. But then, the ending sucked big time. It made me feel kinda sad actually and made me reflect more about my life. I mean.. all this.. this complication.. it just wasn't for me. Well, at least I feel it isn't for me. I mean sometimes, when I'm alone and when I cry.. I just wish that at some point I can just let it all go.. the problems, the tears, the laughter, the feelings.. I mean everything. I don't want a part or any of it for that matter. You know they say that we should be careful of what we wish for? There are times I wish that I never existed. I mean.. Look at me. This is just like some lame-ass joke. My life is nothing but a surreal superficial hoax. I mean.. nothing ever became right. For one, I might be heading for what I didn't eventually want. I see myself slipping away inch by inch. College has been great. I mean.. new life, new set of friends, new start but somewhere along this whole neoradical phase, I lost myself. Heck, I don't even know who I am anymore honestly. I've lost the one I was hoping to become. If it was a far-fetched dream before, now it is all just a vague memory. I guess not only dreams die, but it also drags along the people who made those too.. I am one of them and slowly.. my heartbeat is pacing down and sooner or later, I'm gonna run out of breath.
